The fourth part of my personal healing journey is all about Connection.
If you have been catching up, I have been talking about the different teachers I have had along my life’s journey. The third part of the Unbridled Change Method is learning how to lead your authentic life, and what helped me refine my ability to do this was the teacher of Connection.
In moments when I did not feel resonance with my life, it was in this disconnection that I was able to say that I am missing something. While I knew that I was successful, but I didn’t feel successful. There was a disconnection in it. I was rocking out my life, but there were pieces of me that didn’t feel connected to the life that I had built. I loved my life and the people in it. I even found joy in my life, but there was still something lacking.
It seemed like at the end of day, I would look back and ask myself, “Why was I feeling separate from the life I had built?” The answer always came back to the fact that I haven’t shown up as 100% me in each one of the pieces of my life. I was always holding something back. Finally the feeling of disconnection and dis-ease hit a tipping point for me about eight years ago and I knew I had to do something about it. I decided I needed to start showing up as who I authentically am in all the different parts of my life if I wanted to truly change the way I felt on the inside.
For me, on a scale of 1-10, having solid 8’s or 9’s was no longer enough. I needed to figure out how I can embody a felt sense of satisfaction and having a 10+ in my life. I asked myself:
- “What am I holding back?”
- “Where am I not showing up as me?”
- “What am I so afraid of?”
In my own experience, I discovered that what I was holding back was my soul. I was so afraid to show my intuitiveness and the healer that was inside of me. However, when I finally learned that I was worth it just for who I am, right here in this moment, together with all the good and the bad, and even all the work-in-progress pieces of me, all the pieces of me started to come together. I finally felt connected to the “real” me that was behind the curtain and was willing to share her with the world and take the lead!
Now, I’m crystal clear on my purpose. My soul purpose is to help you unlock and turn up your own internal healer, so you can learn how to heal yourself. My purpose is to show up just like the horses do, support you, partner with you, and say, “I want a 100% of you, not 30, not 40, but 100% and help you figure out what that looks like for you.”
Once you get comfortable showing up with the pieces you are hiding, you will find yourself running towards your soul purpose and rocking out your authentic life.
Once I was willing to connect to the vulnerable pieces of me, I felt amazing joy and freedom. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m still working through blocks. I believe that our healing journey is never “done”, but I have an unshakeable faith in myself, in the universe, and in God. I know that my job is to show up, do my part, and take the lead on my true authentic life!
This is what connection, as my teacher, taught me.
Sending you light and love — Michelle